Support

In the last week and a half since I found out about my diagnosis, I have learned a lot. I have had support from so many people. People who I didn't even know that well were being so nice and helpful. It really made me realize that I'm VERY lucky.

Then of course, I've been frustrated with some. Some people don't understand what I'm going through and don't even want to try. Really only one person: my sister. I think she must think I'm faking all of this. She told me today, "Are you sure you have Lyme Disease?" "Maybe you should get a confirmation." Aghhh! Okay, ummm.. $245, a test that looks at my DNA, and a DOCTOR'S diagnosis isn't enough evidence???? Whatever! I've decided to just not stress about it. I'm not going to waste my energy trying to explain what I'm going through to her, if she doesn't want to know. Why bother?

My husband has been my rock. Seriously I do not know what I would do without him. I just would be utterly lost. He has been so supportive. He listens to EVERYTHING I say. Even when I go on and on about information I have read. He is willing to do WHATEVER it takes to get me better. He doesn't think I'm crazy that I want to drive to Louisiana to see a specialist. He's more than willing to do so. I have cried to him so much in the past year. Back before I even knew what was wrong with me, I would cry because I was scared. I was scared because my chest hurt and my heart was beating weird and I didn't know why. I didn't understand what was going on with my body. He would hold me and let me get it ALL OUT. And now when I know why I have felt like CRAP for the past year, he is stronger than ever for me. He tells me everything is going to be okay and I believe him!!!

I LOVE my husband so much. We have been through a lot and I know we are stronger for it.