Procrastination

I have a very bad habit of procrastinating. I do it with EVERYTHING. I need to make an appointment with my local doctor to get blood work done. It's been 3 months since I've had my blood drawn. I have to get this done to check my liver enzymes. Some of the meds I'm on can cause problems with the liver. I know I need to get this done, but Ughhhh I don't want to! I'm so sick of going to doctors, getting blood taken (which I have a huge aversion to, but have gotten better), and lastly I'm sick of medicine!!!!

Okay enough whining. I know need to do it and stop being a baby. The thing is I haven't seen my local doctor since September. I kind of chose the Louisiana doctor over him. Just because I felt like the LA doctor had more experience. Now I know that my local doctor really knows what he's talking about. A lot of the things he told me I needed to do like taking herbs, staying on certain antibiotics, ect. were the right thing I believe. For some reason I dragged my feet and ignored a lot of his suggestions. It's not because I didn't think he was a very knowledgable doctor, but I just was so confused at the time. I guess now all I can do is trust in him. I'm kind of nervous about going back to him. I don't know why... I just feel like I was wrong to of stopped going to him previously... I feel like a retard. I don't know how to explain it. I just feel like I've made a lot of mistakes. I guess all I can do is make better decisions from here on out...

Hi

Just wanted to say hi to all that read my blog. Lately I've been getting emails from people that I don't even know, saying that they have been reading my blog. I've gotten emails from people who think they have Lyme Disease, asking for help. I've gotten emails from people who have had Lyme Disease and are now completely better.

I love getting emails from people. It really makes me feel like something positive is coming from this whole ordeal. Maybe what I am going through can help others. Plus it's nice to get emails from those who have been through what I'm dealing with... that is comforting.

So, anyway, I just wanted to say hi.

Going through the motions...

Well I don't have anything new to talk about. I'm feeling pretty much the same. I get tired of saying that, but it's the truth. I've just been taking my meds, herbs, and supplements regurarly, hoping for some change. I take so many different pills each day- it's unreal.

Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays are the worse because I take so many pills/herbs on those days. I take 3 flagyls, 2 biaxins, 2 omnicefs, cumanda, samento, vitamin C, a daily vitamin, probiotics, and magnesium (today I took 2 because I was having an uneasiness feeling in my chest- I hate that!).

I've never been much for taking pills. I hate it. The whole time I was pregnant with Holden taking my prenatal was such a chore for me. I dreaded it. I would have to take it along with something, usually applesauce, or else I couldn't swallow it. I still detest taking pills, but it's just something I have to do. I have even gotten to where I can take it with just water... even the big horse pill antibiotics.

Anyway, just wanted to update this. Hopefully some good news is on the way. I'm sick of just saying the same ol' thing!